It's been one year since baby Jacob has been gone. An entire year. Where did it go? My friend has gone a year without her baby.
When I woke up this morning I was in a funk, I couldn't understand why and then I remembered when I saw the date. I can only speak for myself, and my own feelings, but a year ago today marks one of the saddest moments in my memory. Just the thought of no longer having your child to hold, cuddle, rock, feed, change, everything you look at as routine tears my heart into threads. Sometimes when the chicken is being incredibly difficult and I'm ready to just give up I have to stop and remind myself how lucky I am to have this beautiful child in my life.
I just want everyone who reads this today, whoever you are, whatever you have going on in your life to stop and tell those who mean so much to you just how much you love them. I know that unfortunately there are some who read this blog who have lost a child, they know exactly how it feels, and I hate that.
I just wish I could be home with my baby today to hug and kiss him, and let him know that no matter what, he is LOVED.